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[soft music]

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[beeping]

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<v Paul's Mother>Paul, it's mom.</v>

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You really need to get back home.

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Dad's not well.

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<v ->I've been choreographing for 31 years.</v>

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Maybe this is my way of saying goodbye.

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[soft music]

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[beeping]

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<v Saber>Hey Paul, this is Saber, I heard about your dad.</v>

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I'm so sorry.

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<v ->Our hands are very similar.</v>

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I always look at my hands and see my dad.

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And he was just searching for my hand the whole time.

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<v Woman>Hey, Baba, I'm just checking in.</v>

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I'm here if you want to talk.

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<v ->It was at the height of lockdown</v>

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he was laying on the pillow, and he said, "Well."

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And he put his thumb like this, and he said,

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banging the pillow, he said,

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"I can't stay here".

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And I knew there's a very strong chance

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this is my last opportunity to talk my father.

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Saber, let's look at a couple of very small things

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before we try and start piecing it together.

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People don't need to know it's about my dad.

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Well, hopefully they'll feel

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something about honoring somebody.

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Quick as you can like, bop!

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Like you're playing Alex's note with your foot.

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I spent five days alone in hospital before he died.

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And I wasn't allowed to be with him.

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That's the word I'm looking for.

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It's like, you have to, you have to say, I'm sorry.

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You know, so all of this.

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So, and I've always been a person to find opportunity,

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rather than look at the difficulties,

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but this has been tough.

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<v Woman>You've been working so hard, Baba.</v>

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Are you okay?

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<v ->It's this feeling of like a slow inhalation,</v>

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you know, like, that breath that he couldn't take.

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And there's so much inside me boiling about,

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in a way, the tragedy of this moment.

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I miss him a lot.

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I'm not depressed.

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I'm not despondent.

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on the contrary, I'm sort of excited.

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I feel like there can be opportunity for a kind of a rebirth

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for all of us here.

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There's an element of risk that you need to take,

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a little bit more anxiousness.

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This is about getting rid of things.

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Beautiful, Saber, that's beautiful.

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Great.

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I want you to close your eyes on the last note.

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But it's about how you, like, you know, life's gone.

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There was so much I would've loved to have changed.

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We're so close now.

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And I know what I want to do for the end.

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Very, very important is that last, last, last thing,

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that foot going off the ground,

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it's the last time you're going to touch

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that sort of physical earth,

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you're going to another one.

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It's actually a great period

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as tragic and as confusing as it is.

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There's something great about it.

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You feel it?

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It's like it's just in time to say goodbye.

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This is for him.

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[somber music]

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Yeah.

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Thank you so much.

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He would've loved it.

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